Holy Moly Time Flies!
It has been quite some time since my last post, and I am still striving to be all things to all people in my life. You would think that someday I would learn, ha ha. Well I have to say that it is more taxing, and more rewarding than I ever imagined to raise a toddler. My two year old "monster" has far more energy than I, and I find myself running out of every resource imaginable. I run out of time, patience, money, you name it. At the end of the day I find myself thinking....I have to do this all again tomorrow.
School usually suffers the most. I have to balance the priorities of losing points for late assignments against learning the functions needed with my new job, or even sleep. I am attempting to take it all in stride, some days are definitely better than others, but I definitely fail in departments. I find that re-aligning my priorities has become almost a daily task....family is of course always first, so that is a given, but the rest of it, health, fitness, school, work, making and retaining friendships, all tend to toggle in importance now. I travel a lot more in this new job, and as much as that should be time for me to reflect and get more done than when I am at home juggling the needs of a two year old, I find that the opposite is true.
I see a lot of posts on social media that state that the parent cannot imagine life without their child...well truthfully, I imagine life without my child every day! That may make me a bad mom, but it is hard to raise a toddler, and truthfully no one allows you to feel overwhelmed, and to sometimes, every once in a while, imagine what life would be like if you didn't have that responsibility. Granted I love my child and wouldn't want to have a life without him, but things are definitely harder now that I have him to constantly run after.
I guess I am trying to validate that these feelings are okay, that it is okay to lose it every once in a while, and that it is fine to drop the ball, as long as you pick yourself up, dust off that priority set, and continue to move forward. :)
School usually suffers the most. I have to balance the priorities of losing points for late assignments against learning the functions needed with my new job, or even sleep. I am attempting to take it all in stride, some days are definitely better than others, but I definitely fail in departments. I find that re-aligning my priorities has become almost a daily task....family is of course always first, so that is a given, but the rest of it, health, fitness, school, work, making and retaining friendships, all tend to toggle in importance now. I travel a lot more in this new job, and as much as that should be time for me to reflect and get more done than when I am at home juggling the needs of a two year old, I find that the opposite is true.
I see a lot of posts on social media that state that the parent cannot imagine life without their child...well truthfully, I imagine life without my child every day! That may make me a bad mom, but it is hard to raise a toddler, and truthfully no one allows you to feel overwhelmed, and to sometimes, every once in a while, imagine what life would be like if you didn't have that responsibility. Granted I love my child and wouldn't want to have a life without him, but things are definitely harder now that I have him to constantly run after.
I guess I am trying to validate that these feelings are okay, that it is okay to lose it every once in a while, and that it is fine to drop the ball, as long as you pick yourself up, dust off that priority set, and continue to move forward. :)
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