Change is the Only Constant
This week gave me a lot of changes both elating and terrifying. With the help of my caring Ex I leased a new car, giving me a car payment for the first time in 5 years. We transitioned to the split custody of our son, and my son met a new friend (mommy's friend). All of these changes were scary....bittersweet. As I sat signing the paperwork for my new car, which I love, I couldn't control the tears, and they fell freely. I mourned the loss of my car that drove my baby since he was one year old. The vehicle that took him to his first day of pre-school and Kindergarten. I mourned the time I would no longer spend arguing with him to do his homework or get ready for bed. And I realized how this was the end of my old life, the actual end. I know that change is necessary sometime, but you can't help but mourn what was. I think that change is something that we fear because it is something that we cannot control. We can certainly try, but change will still come. It is t